meditation

Look at them.  They are well seated, relaxed...there.  Does my heart good.

This man's posture is excellent. I admire his concentration.  He's obviously into meditation for the long haul, as is the whole class.  They are blessed to find the center, the very breath of our life, the light of our minds.  If someone asked me, what was the greatest gift I could ever give, I would answer without hesitation: meditation.  It's worth more than gold or silver, more than diamonds.  Eternal values: Without peace of mind, what do you have?  Can you enjoy anything with your mind running full speed 24 hours a day?  Looking at the world, can you see peace?  It's a driver-absent train running at full speed with no stop signals, and no brakes.

Meditation gives you a chance to get off your train of thought, for a brief spell.  To think that one's train of thought never, ever stops makes me nervous.  How can one question one's self? Where is  the enjoyment in never-ending judgemnts, anxieties, ruminations?
   
Meditation is for you, and for me. It's for this world, torn up by Fukushima, and so much else. It's now.

I'm going to give you a lesson in meditation, what it is, and what it is not.

Meditation is effortless.  All you have to do is maintain the posture; that's all there is to it.  And if your mind starts acting up, you can follow your breath.  Never fails.

To begin: Sit on a cushion, from 2-4 inches high or thereabouts, on a carpeted floor, or the grass; somewhere comfortable, quiet.  Sit with your legs folded under you, left leg first.  Or, sit in a chair if need be.  Even in a chair, you should lightly cross your legs at about the ankles, left leg under, and let them fall back toward the chair so your calves are resting at about a 45 degree angle, whatever feels right; your sitz bones under you should flatten out and not be on end -this is important for a good sitting experience, even when not meditating.  Yoga postures are not necessary (Incidentally, I'm only teaching meditation, not religion, not Hinduism or Buddhism or Taoism. You can think of meditation as being like brushing your teeth, only for your mind and emotions; clearing the crap off each day so it doesn't accumulate and calcify).

When you're sitting comfortably, lean a bit side to side to feel if your spine is straight up in the center.  Arch your back then let go; better a slight arch than a slump forward.  Take a deep breath, slowly, and raise yourself up to your full height. Exhale and relax, slowly.  Nod your head side to side, be sure it's straight up the middle.  Tuck your chin in and release gently - you should be looking straight ahead.  If you find your head tilting back, as is common, bring it back again; always looking straight ahead.

Now you are ready to meditate. What to do? Nothing. Just sit. You can think, if you want.  You can pray, you can contemplate whatever, or simply do nothing: it doesn't matter. You are just waiting for your mind to quiet down, to get tired, like a cow wandering a field, finally relaxing, and lying down.  Then comes quiet.  The time you are waiting can be peaceful if you are enjoying your thoughts.  But if not, you can follow your breath: each time you breath in, think: "Breathing in..."  Each time you breath out, think: "Breathing out..." This becomes a habit very easily and is very effective at quieting your mind, even if you've only been sitting a short time. You can use it while walking too.

So just sit.  No effort whatsoever. The only problem you may face is squirminess, the desire to jump out of one's skin, the itchy feeling. I get it sometimes; I persevere. You just have to put up with it. It passes.

So you've sat for 20 minutes, or 40 minutes, or 10 minutes; whatever feels natural to you is right. When you're done, it's important to ground yourself, because your energy has been rising all this time, and you have to come back to yourself, your heart space, your ground. Imagining a small hole in the center of your chest, breathe in and out of your spiritual heart for a minute, imagine a warm feeling there and tell yourself, my heart is wide open; my heart feels good. Very soon you begin to feel it. 

Now reorient yourself and take a moment to say to yourself: I am back in the world and I am ready to face the world. I am grounded, I am here and my heart is open.  Then get up, slowly.

Prayers for Japanese earthquake and tsunami victims, Katmandu, Nepal

That's it.  You've just meditated.  Good for you. 

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Question: What do I do with my hands?
Answer:  They should rest in your lap, palms up, right hand nestled in left.  Or turn them over, palms

               down, in a natural way; hands and arms should always be relaxed, supported, natural.

Q: When I close my eyes and start to meditate, I feel like I'm flying away; I can't stand it!
A:  You're becoming aware of just how stirred up and engaged your mind and emotions are.  You are

      living like this everyday but you don't notice it; now you become aware. Good. The solution:

      meditate with your eyes open for now, every so often close them for a minute and take your mental

      -emotional 'pulse', just to see where you are at.

Q: I don't have time for meditation!
A: It can be tough to find time.  But even a few minutes of absolute non-doing is essential to breaking

     the train of thought.  Do it, a few times each day.

Q: Every time I meditate the phone rings! Or, I have to go to the bathroom.
A: Keep your cell phone, pen and notepad next to you when you sit, and visit the WC before you start.

Q: You said earlier, I will show what meditation is not. What is it, not?
A:  Meditation is not walking on the beach; reading books (especially books about meditation); making
     art; cooking; or a million other things that don't involve sitting in meditation posture, silently, for a

     length of time.  Don't kid yourself.  After 40 years I find myself sometimes thinking, Gee, I'm in a

     meditation space, and I'm just riding the bus staring out the window-or some such.  All fine and well,

     but I know that if I don't do proper sitting every day, I'm useless.

Address any additional questions to me here in the comments, I'll do my best to answer them.  No personal problems, please -I'm not a wise man.  We're going to get through this Fukushima thing one way or another;  I think this is one of the best resources we have.

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Mediation strengthens us for doing the important tasks in life, such as: doing away with nuclear power.  Take action on one of the following items:

Email the President and tell him to intervene personally in this crisis; it's a matter of national security

http://www.whitehouse.gov/contact/submit-questions-and-comments

Email the Secretary of State and tell her the same http://contact-us.state.gov/app/ask

Send a message to your President or Prime Minister or Monarch wherever you are, asking them to
intervene directly, and swiftly, to avoid such a disaster.

If you are in Japan, go to the streets. Stay in the streets until you prevail.  For the rest of us, I see no clear options.  If you have a better idea, tell me -I want to do it.  Peace

one being, no proof

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oGGVdB_tm9Y&list=UUUDxWq0ILu88kXtve7yyv1w&index=5&feature=plcp

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MolubebaFUA&feature=BFa&list=UUUDxWq0ILu88kXtve7yyv1w

日本語

  We watch ourselves in the camera and laugh
  Page views increase

  We do not need to use the subject
  We can trace justice of somebody
  The hyperlinks increase

  Narcissism accelerates
  as there are not the others in the local
  The Internet is closed

  Radioactive materials
  Quarrels of digital data
  Which lives long ?

  Do not copy and paste
  such a worthless tweet
  by me who cannot see the face

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9/9 I recieved a reply from Mr. Sonoda (Parliamentary Secretary). He said he saw this web site and would have a consultation about correspondence.
mail 0898

↑the situation of Fukuichi live camera / the camera was fastened on the handrail of the step over the pipes.

On 30/8/2011 afternoon, at the press conference Tepco answered that it is difficult to determine the pointing person’s identity and there is no plan to investigate. Supposing it to be a fact, if it is announced formally that Tepco and the prime contractor never add any sanctions to the company which I belonged to, I open myself and the day’s my behavior and make the asterisks on this page clear.(I have already left a company.)
The main points of this page
 - I did the action regardless of the company. So I want not to add any sanctions to it.
 - I want the government and Tepco to address the labor issue seriously.
 - The intention of pointing a finger toward camera was to point out about the labor issue and observation through the media.

It is me who pointed a finger toward the Fukuichi live camera.

■ First, let me explain why I make a statement here.
I feared the possibility that the determination of my identity caused my company a deal of trouble.
(I have already left a company.)
If Tepco or the prime contractor takes wrong interpret the action as the company’s misconduct and add some penalty, there is no excuse for it to my company and the boss and seniors and colleagues.
To make it open that there is no relation between my action and my company, I explain in expectation of some effect to prevent from the meaningless sanctions.
But if I make my identification clear without confirming the course of Tepco, that will merely make an excuse of sanctions. So I show my face on the picture as the same range as the video.

Maybe there is no necessary to make this page because if I don’t say anything more no one can know my identification.
However, I doubt the answer of Tepco and the government on the conference.
Tepco’s spokesman said that it’ difficult to determine the person’s identification and there was no plan to investigate, but I have expected that it is easy to cast doubt on me.
Because I went into the site of the plant and lent an APD(radiometer, dosimeter) with staggering the hours from the other standard workers, and return it soon after I did the action.
My unnatural stay time was recorded with the identification number.
On the conference Mr. Sonoda said that the government had a plan investigation. If that was one of the counterterror measures, it’s appropriate to think the determination had been done.
In that case, there is a possibility of sanction without some notification. So I want to say the sanction or the penarlty is meaningless before the confirmation on facts.
The action was done at my own discretion. There are no relations and responsibility to the company which I belonged to.
I had hidden my intention from everyone in the company so no one can know about my action.
No company can avoid the sudden deviation by a man applied for the job offer increased after the accident.
I have a favor to Tepco and the prime contractor. Please note those points and don’t add any sanction to the company which doesn’t have any relationship to my action. Entrust the business as before. Please take a soft line.

If it is expressed officially that no sanction or penalty will be done, I make my identification and the details of my behavior on that day.
I also make it clear when my identification has been determined.
If there is not any matters on labor environment or employment and security, and nobody don’t act like terrorism and can’t act so, maybe investigation is not necessary.
However I must apologize for the possibility of some trouble to the company which I was employed.
I’m terribly sorry.


■ Then I explain the sequence intention and of the action.
I went into the site of Tepco’s Fukushima Daiichi Nuclear Power Plant and point a finger toward the plant’s live-streaming camera on August 28, my holiday.
I had known about the camera and its rough position by the information on internet and the bulletin board in the significant seismic building.
I approached to the camera with APD and the mask and Tyvec’s protecting suit ,and point at it while watching myself by the live-streaming video on my mobile phone.
The subject I pointed toward was Tepco and the government, and people watching the video in live or after , and myself on the mobile phone.
■The intention of pointing toward Tepco, the goverment and the claim for them

I claim the concrete improvement of the state of working conditions, entrustment of businesses to subcontract companies, ascertainment of all workers’ employment situations.
As you know according by the reports from some media, there are some workers who have some compelling reason were arranged by the people in the outlaw territory.  And they work while hiding from the prime contractor that they are in unfair or harsh conditions.
Even the case of the company recruiting through the Hello Work (Japanese government employment agency), the prime contractor don’t know some workers’ actual employer.
Too many subcontracts cause some problems of the workers’ low wages or not to join the insurances, no contract documents, as known by reports of media.

In addition, I show some of my experiences.
I had some days that I can’t asleep well in the daytime though I had works in late night because the working hours of our room’s members are inconsistent.
There is a rule that the workers have to declare the day’s conditions of their health by writing and submitting the paper.
I wrote 4 about the sleeping hours honesty, but a senior rewrite as 6 while I took my eyes off.
I think he judged that the existence of a person who can’t control his health is not good for our company.
And, I saw workers who have much extra jobs except the job which the prime contractor knows. They worked so hard for miscellaneous jobs –for example, caring newcomers’ procedures– and they did their original jobs and drove a car in spite of a few hours sleeping.
Subcontract companies compete or appeal with overwork, then the prime contractor obtain high efficiency works with low cost.
But some small unreasonable things and harmful effects are not reported to above.
They could lead to serious accident in this emergency.

If someone indicates those problems on the conference, Tepco may just answer “we are going to investigate” or “we ask cooperative companies not to do so.”
And great information never will be reported.
Only the evidences not to damage to themselves will be reported to above for having been subcontracted.
Subcontract companies and dishonesty workers are not only responsible for such this situation but also prime contractor or Tepco.
Even if some workers or the companies were punished severely, this problem would not be solved.
Stern regulations don’t connect the safety measure.
This is the important thing we have to learn from the Train Crash on JR West Fukuchiyama Line(2005), I think.
Tepco has to release weaker people from the pressure that they have to hide their overworks.
This is hard to carry senses of mission on their back for many people, so we must not to impose the pressures of labor conditions or instability of employment.
I think we should cope with this problem as whole problem of employment system.
It is best that if Tepco employed all workers and companies.
If it is completely unable, I want Tepco to confirm the all workers’ contract situation on their documents completry (though I did not make written agreement), and to check if there are fair wages and insurances.
How about grasping if there are enough people on each posts or companies?
Orginally, outsourcing is not to waive the responsible of administration but to consign technical works.
I hear that the accident is barely saved from the worst crisis nevertheless being unpredictable.
In this case, it is important to avoid human errors from the halfway administration or caring workers.
And my action went through without someone’s check, it gave an example that there is many ways to pick something by someone who were not satisfied on the present state.
This won’t change anything if the security will become improved.
It is proper measure to improve the employment situation not to make workers unsatisfied.
I hope mass-medias to ask Tepco and the government these points.

 
■ The intention of pointing toward the people who watches the video

I wanted to make a opposite direction against the observation.
We still have put the workers on nuclear power plant as “an exceptional subject different from us” by changing the word from “lower workers” to “heros” or “working people”
I wanted to point it out.
I think we can't avoid this on watching something through a media.

■ the intention of pointing toward myself through the mobile phone

I also watch workers and this accident through the media, so I can't leaving out of this situation, I thought.
And this action content a self-sacrifice by narcissism, it should not acknowledge unconditionally in the social crisis.
Gloomy mind caused by watching TV show should be eliminated by political participation through elections.
My behavior of working only in a short period should be watched and criticized as a slacktivistic pattern.



■ The above is the explanation of the intention of pointing a finger, the effectiveness might be incomplete.
As indicated by some people, I simulated <<centers>> by Vito Acconti in the situation with internet and nuclear power plant.

However the unclearly action might contribute the growing impudent of the conspiracy theory and occultism.
It was unexpected that putting BGM like a horror movie in the TV programs and too many unrealistic opinions are commented on the internet.
In addition to my eerie action, that was caused by the present situation that information is limited and is difficult to have argument.
I want mass-media people to make program which is based on the covering the seismic building and workers cooperated by Tepco.
If they are hero, there are no necessary to use mosaic masking.
If it becomes usual, there won’t be so many comments about the pointing person hoping scoop or supernatural happenings, but many blames and abuse for making trouble to company as one of the working adult.
I hope such sound daily scene to come again.

■ I say again.
There is no relations between my action and the company I belonged to.
The company can’t know about my intention in advance so they don’t have any responsible.
I have a favor to Tepco and the prime contractor. Please note those points and don’t add any sanction to the company which doesn’t have any relationship to my action. Entrust the business as before. Please take a soft line.。

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私の夕食の例です　食器から特定されそうで掲載をためらっていましたが、現場でいただくレトルト食の画像のみではアンフェアな気がしたので貼ります。







↑これらのA4サイズの貼り紙は他の様々な掲示物に紛れていたのを自主的に探してやっと見つけたものです。

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Hell

Everything

I imagine the news and it comes true.  Everything I think comes to pass, slowly or fast.  We are losing it.  I'm losing my mind.  I feel sick. Fukushima is making me sick, figuratively, literally.  Once I get through my latest personal crisis, I come back to...  this.  And it won't go away; it's too awful.

I'm thinking of making a video, so shocking, so awful that no one will be able to watch it all the way through.  A video that will tell the truth about radiation, Fukushima, nuclear power.  Because all the news on the web means only one thing to me: death.

What does it mean to you?  I can't tell. I don't know. I don't know any other person's mind; only mine.  I try to keep mine filled up with music so it can't explode.  But it does anyway and what's the use?  In five years..

If SFP4 goes, I want to be standing there right beside it, breathing in the fumes, hoping to die in minutes.  Not later, after it all goes bad.  I want to defuse the nuclear meltdown in my soul, but it won't go away.  No amount of tranquilizers or mental therapy will defuse it, because it's there.  To stay.

We have time, time to do many things.  But we won't do them.  I can see the trend, and it isn't going anywhere; stasis.  We have time.  Time to do many things.  Washing, drying, cleaning, soaking, wringing out rags, staining the carpet, the rug, everywhere with our blood.  Because it's time.

I see overcrowded hospitals, frantic nurses, everybody thinks their case is the only case, virulent patients, and their families bullying and bellowing, screaming and fighting with doctors, threatening the nurses and whoever else tries to help; collapsing doctors, never turning away anybody, never treating anybody, never burying anybody. No room in the morgue, in any morgue; bodies stacked outside. Nervous breakdowns.

Shots.  Gunfire in the night as neighborhoods give over to sheer, unadulterated disdain, as every last shred of propriety vanishes.  As we continue breathing, only this time, it's fear, 24 hours straight.  As we approach the end, we see this ain't no rollercoaster; we're going straight down into the firepit -with no relief.

In my mind there are fearsome carpets, waves of rats and roaches feasting on the dead bodies of former citizens, growing fat and rabid, proliferating at a rate undreamed of.  Woe to those who emerge from their bomb shelters...

Then just a furry, crackling mass covering cities; then covered over itself by vegetation, greenery, and flowers hopefully, diminishing in number as there is less to eat...  The cities will turn green once again.  And the ocean...

The ocean will reign supreme, in its majesty, rolling in, rolling out, with serene stateliness, forever, bringing peace to the world, that neither knows, nor cares.  Eternity is now, and the Pre-Cambrian essence that once ruled the scene makes its way back, as trilobites make a reappearance.  Then is now, now is all time;  there is no time...

                                                                      
I want things to go back the way they were.  I want things to go back the way they were!  I want things to settle down.  just...
But everything is different.

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Email the President and tell him to intervene personally in this matter; it's a matter of national security, as well as a humanitarian and ecological crisis: http://www.whitehouse.gov/contact/submit-questions-and-comments

And tell the Secretary of State the same: http://contact-us.state.gov/app/ask

Send a message to your President or Prime Minister or Monarch wherever you are, asking them to intervene directly, and swiftly, to avoid such a disaster.  Protest...  against the building of any new nuclear plants.
It's the last battle.
Peace